Monday, December 21, 2015

Decisions, Decisions...

August 2015

The day following the biopsy, my sister got preliminary results.  I received the news in the presence of my husband and my parents.  I felt horrible for putting my sister in this situation, but I couldn't take it back, and at least she was understanding and sympathetic to all of my wants and wishes.  She was great and positive even in the face of news that most people would feel were horrible.  

At this time she recommended that I get another PET scan or at the very least have some thermography testing done to detect further evidence of metastasis.  Thermography is an alternative test to normal medical imaging, etc. to find abnormalities/tumors in the body.  Recently I have seen a lot of advertising for breast thermograms in place of mammograms.  It is basically the mapping of heat distribution in the body.  Tumors need extra blood vessels to survive, so it is easy for the thermogram to detect that extra heat.  

She also recommended I do some real research on cannabis.  I lived in Oregon now, and not only was it legal for medicinal purposes with a doctor's prescription, but it soon would be legal for recreational use and growing on your own not just through a medical dispensary.  She explained that recently even the U.S. government and other major scientific journals were admitting that cannabis is great at healing cancer and a myriad of other medical conditions including epilepsy, chronic pain, anxiety, depression, and the list goes on. 

Lastly, she told me to really consider traveling to see a man in Brazil that people refer to as John of God. If you have not heard of him, look him up.  He has been featured on Oprah, and more than one documentary has been done on him. This isn't the first time I have heard of him or even considered going to see him.  Dr. R recommended I see a local friend of his and do some sessions with her on a special bed that John of God uses on a regular basis.  Dr. R's friend was given special permission to use this bed and bring one back to the States.  He Muscle tested me on our first appointment together and it was determined it was a good fit for me.  Remember just because one treatment works well for one person doesn't mean it will work well for another, thus the purpose of muscle testing.  (If you are not familiar with muscle testing, look it up.  It is very interesting and helpful especially in my situation.)

Once I had met with Dr. R's friend for a session on her bed, she also recommended that I consider taking John of God's blessed herbs (passion flower).  She explained that all I needed to do was write a description of my issue (cancer diagnosis) and take a picture while wearing white clothing.  Based on the photo and the problem you needed help with, he will bless some passion flower herbs specifically for you and you alone.  I did opt to do that about two years ago, so I was very familiar with John of God at this time.  (If you are interested in learning more about John of God consider going to the YouTube channel "Be Happy Today with Cecilia and Philippe" where they answer FAQ on John of God.)

So it was time to make some decisions about what I wanted to do.  I first of all was going to do another cleanse.  Basically, this meant that I would clear my body of all toxins and poisons by eating only fruits and veggies for a week or two.  I already ate quite a bit of them, but this also means that for a week or two no dairy, gluten, or most all animal products.  I would still allow myself my morning yogurt.

Next, I decided that I would not do a PET scan or thermography for the time being.  After speaking with a dear friend and family practice doctor that also helped me with meditation, etc., she reminded me that doing this creates a lot of fear in my body.  One thing I know about myself is I don't do well when living in fear, and my body tends to feel more fatigue and drop weight quickly when in fear.  It is hard for me to stay in a healthy place when living in fear rather than living in love.  She did ask me if I would change my treatment options depending on what the scans revealed, and I replied that it would not make a difference.  If it didn't make a change on what I would do with treatment, was it really necessary to put myself through it?  Especially if I was just going to expose myself to caner causing radiation to get these results that would not affect what I would do.

Next, I did decide to try the cannabis oil.  I did research along with my sister and brother, and we found a source for high quality FEMCO.  FEMCO stands for full extract medical cannabis oil and there are high standards for the best results possible.  It is made to have both the THC and CBD (which all the research we found stated you needed both to get the desired results), and it is made with a solvent that is safe for the body.  In the past the solvents used for cannabis oil were in fact cancer causing themselves (although they did often see great results for example with the Rick Simpson Oil or RSO), so we were careful to find a good reliable source.  The best part was the testimonials they gave us access to and the daily guidance on how to use it, etc.  Someone checked in with me on an almost a daily basis, and anytime I had questions or needed assistance, they were there to help me.

For me this was a hard decision.  I grew up here in the States, and I was taught that cannabis/marijuana was a horrible drug that was for the most part very illegal everywhere.  I have never used drugs (legal or illegal).  I have never even been drunk before.  Now whether it was right to make cannabis/marijuana legal or illegal was not really the issue.  The issue was more the brainwashing that I received about it.  It was a belief system of mine to not use "drugs", and so it was very difficult to change this belief.  On the other hand, I had read so many studies and spoken with and followed stories of so many people that had been healed with cannabis oil that I just thought it was something I should start.  Another issue was money.  As insurance does not pay for any of this "alternative" treatment, my parents were very supportive and helped me out with it.  (One thing that every cancer patient needs is a great support system, and I have the best one around.  Whether they agree with my choices or not they are supportive of my decisions.  I am so blessed.)

So now my last decision was to whether or not to go to Brazil.  I, of course, really wanted to go, but there was once again the issue of money.  Not only would it be nice to see John of God, but I felt the need for rest and relaxation.  It would be wonderful to focus on me without the need to to take care of my other responsibilities whether it be juicing, food preparation, taking care of kids, etc.  After discussing things with my parents, it was decided I would go.

My mother knew an acquaintance from her Rapid Eye classes that is a guide to John of God.  The best part was that her friend was born and raised in Brazil.  Not only did she know the language, but she could really help immerse me in the experience of the Brazilian culture and help me with all of the paperwork that was needed.  I was so excited for this.  I felt like for me that this cancer was not 100% a physical issue.  I really felt like it was more of an emotional/spiritual issue that I just needed to resolve, and I felt like this was the perfect opportunity.



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